I hear wedding bells ringing...

It's the time of the year again when people starts planning for their weddings. I have to date 4 invites already. I remember how much red packets I've given out early this year that cause drought to my bank account. I really envy those friends who are getting married or have gotten HAPPILY married. I can get abnormally ecstatic when I hear my friends getting ready to be parents, trust me. I absolutely think I've got a great love for kids. Lewis said I am sure to be a good mother if I have a kid. Will I?

Talking about marriage and kids, I've been pondering about one issue. What do you think of shot-gun marriages? I know it's a very sensitive topic to talk about to some. But being the people person and brought up in a rather conservative family, I really value how much people around me nowadays sees it. No, no, I am not pregnant as yet. Coming back to the topic, in the current society we are in, I feel it's extremely norm to be pregnant before marriage or even being a single-parent. But for me, one thing I worry most is what my family will think and how they will react? Will they disown me or leave me to fend for myself? Will my relatives take me as a bad example to their kids? It'll be my deepest fear of breaking the news to them if I were to get pregnant one day.

Anyway, I think it's a rather personal and individual thing and everyone have their own ways of handling and explainations. So there's actually no rights or wrongs about shot-gun marriages right? If any of my friends were to be pregnant, I will definitely be congratulating them with my utmost sincere blessings. I assure you I'm not like some others who will give comments like unglam or I'll never do that if I were her. I can't hide the envious in me even and can't wait to be a mummy myself, how will I gossip bad about it.

I would very much love to have my own family with a house that only my partner and I and my kids live in. And definitely can't wait to be a good mummy. God! I seem very impatient to building up a family of my own! But cross my fingers and let nature takes it's course!